Archive: April 2006
Hasn't sunken in yet
August 29, 2005Well here I am. It's Sunday night already. Actually it's officially Monday morning, because it is nearly 1 AM. What a whirlwind of activities, events, and emotions this past weekend has been. It went incredibly fast. It's hard to put into words what I'm feeling right now, since I'm not sure that I even know myself. One of my Goshen friends asked me tonight how it feels to be at...
More »Thinking back
August 25, 2005It's funny how we always seem to want what we can't have. I was thinking back today on a time this fall when i was so discontented with my life, and was frustrated with feeling too stuck in so many things. I wasn't able to enjoy the place where I was at. As I reflect on this past year, I realize now that I really did come to a point...
More »That intuitive feeling
There goes that pendulum again...so, maybe I'm still not as ready to leave as I thought. Tonight I just have that heavy, sinking feeling that there's something I'm forgetting. Kind of like that intuitive feeling you get when you leave for a weekend trip that you're missing something, and then upon arriving at your destination you realize you forgot your toothbrush. Well, it's kind of like that. But yet deeper.... More »Off at school
August 22, 2005Now that most of my friends are already off at school, and the "goodbye/see you later"'s are basically done, I can finally concentrate on packing. So that's what I did for most of the day, and will be doing again tomorrow. I bought a love seat for my dorm room at the thrift store for ten dollars, which I'm quite excited about. Even if it is an ugly brownish gold...
More »Traveling Mercies
August 19, 2005I recently read "Traveling Mercies" by Anne Lamott. It's a great book, one that I would definitely reccommend. She writes with such an honest, perceptive style. One of my favorite quotes from the book came to mind, because today was a rough day until some of my friends recently lifted my mood. Anyway, here is the quote: "It's funny: I always imagined when I was a kid that adults had...
More »Finances and bedtime
Today I went over a lot of the financial stuff with my dad that I need to get settled before going to college. We also went to the bank and I opened my first checking account. I’m looking forward to having a little bit more financial responsibility…but I’m sure that will change pretty quickly. It continues to amaze me how fast things can add up. The last couple of days... More »A song
August 18, 2005I wrote a song today. For the first time. It was the weirdest thing; I just started playing guitar, and I guess the thoughts I was trying to pray just came out in a song instead. I feel like it was a mixture of me needing to channel my thoughts and God sending me a message. Well anyway, here are the words: walk with me Jesus I wanna see your...
More »Ten days!
August 16, 2005As the time to leave draws near, all those typical questions are resurfacing. "Where are you going to college?" And my favorite, "Oh, and what will you be studying?" As much as I know that these people are just trying to take some interest in my life, these questions serve as a constant reminder to me that I really don't have a whole lot of an idea of what i...
More »The pendulum swings
August 15, 2005I feel like my emotions are on a huge pendulum right now, swinging back and forth from one extreme to the other. At one moment, I’m so excited for college. I want to pack up all my things, even though I don’t leave for nearly two weeks, I can’t wait to meet my roommate, I’ll be closer to my sister Maria, and I yearn for that step out in independence....
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